I am in love with the spirit of trees. It all started last year during the month of November when I had my first transcendental experience with a tree. Quite a few people in the past would tell me that I needed to ground my energy by connecting with the trees. I tried this, but did not feel anything except for the bark of the tree and my mind was saying something like “I do not know what others are feeling, but I do not feel anything.”

One day I was having a day of over thinking and decided to go to my favorite vortex area called Boynton Canyon. On my way back down from the vortex, I decided to walk up to this one tree that I had seen before. I proceeded to place my hands upon the tree and I started to feel a slight vibration. The longer I stood there, the stronger the vibrations resonating through my whole body. By the way, this tree was on the trail that so many people kept walking by. This kept distracting me as I was self-conscious of what they may be thinking about me doing this. But, I kept up with it and when I placed my forehead on the tree, this powerful wave of energy completely wrapped itself around me. Oh, the joy I felt within me and a smile that I could not contain even though people were watching me.

As I walked away from this beautiful tree spirit, I immediately noticed that my feet had more of a weight to them and I was walking very slowly and felt very calm – seriously, not sure if I had ever felt that way in my whole entire life. I was in amazement that this skinny, medium size tree somehow just helped me to become more centered, balanced and being in the moment.

After this experience, I started to noticed that I could feel the energies of other trees, some more powerful than others. Something had definitely shifted within my brain taking me more into the intuitive feeling side and less in the analytical, logical side. I had been wanting for a long time to no longer primarily live in the linear, thinking world and to experience life beyond the physical world.

I Just read of a study how trees can be healing to humans (http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/health/news/9344129/Jogging-in-forest-twice-as-good-as-trip-to-gym-for-mental-health.html). People around trees can lower high stress levels, mild depression, insomnia and probably many other struggles that humans go through every day. With my experience of feeling the energy of trees, I can testify that they are very healing even if one cannot feel the living vibrations of the tree.

Not all trees are alike, just as the same runs true with humans. I have walked up to many trees this past year and I can say that with most, I do not feel powerful energies that I feel with other certain trees. I have come across about five trees in Port Townsend, WA that have blown me away with the power that they hold. Some tree spirits have gone right into my heart center and others have helped me to be more grounded.

Without revealing my experiences with trees to a few friends who are psychic, they shared with me that the elementals of earth want to work with me in the healing work I facilitate for myself and others. I can honestly tell you, that if someone had told me that I would feel the energy of trees like I do now, I would have thought they were crazy. The reason why I share this with you, is to let you know that trees can be healing and that there is so much more to life than what our eyes see through the thinking mind.

There was a special woman named Arlen who recently passed. When I shared my experiences with trees, she told me of an experience she had a very long time ago. She was leaving her house to go to work and somehow this huge tree in her yard said “Please save me, they are going to take me away.” Of course, she dismissed this as it was just her mind saying these words to her. When she got home, the tree had been cut down. Arlen was a very sensitive being, but did not trust what she felt. Over 50 years of her life, she did not utilize this experience to connect with trees that could have helped her to be more empowered in the beautiful soul that she was and still is.

May many humans start opening up past their logical minds, so that we can appreciate the invisible world that is around us, bringing forth the love that will heal the old paradigm that is crumbling all around us. So, if you are having a difficult time worrying about the things in your life, give trees a chance to help bring you into your heart.

Source:
NHS
One 2012 study found that anything from a stroll in the park to a run through woodland can have a positive effect on people suffering from depression and anxiety.
The study also showed that the positive effect on people’s mental health was 50 per cent more than they might expect from going to the gym.
The researchers at Glasgow University looked at natural and non-natural environments for physical activity, including walking, running and cycling, and found that being around trees and grass lowered brain stress levels.
The study, led by Prof Richard Mitchell, polled nearly 2000 physically active people in the 2008 Scottish Health Survey.
Only activities carried out in a natural environment outdoors were found to be associated with a lower risk of poor mental health.

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Everything is coming up to be healed.  Life for many feels like the world is coming apart.  However, from a higher perspective the world that we have grown accustomed to over hundreds of years is coming to an end.  The old cannot continue any longer without heavy consequences to those who are doing harm to themselves or others, either consciously or unconsciously.

Hatred, judgment, racism, wars, corporate greed, printing money when countries are already bankrupt, secretly poisoning of humanity with chemicals in food and water is coming up to the surface to be cleansed and healed. The masses who have been asleep for a long time, blindly believing what they have been programmed to believe, are starting to wake up to what has been happening behind closed doors, done by the very few who have been controlling the masses for a long time.

Our world is a reflection of humanity’s inner states of what we think, feel and how we behave in our own individual worlds.  It is the human ego that lives within all of us which causes the separation that we feel and experience in our lives.  Be prepared as we move forward to become triggered in your every day lives with your own personal issues and fears that are coming up to be healed.

It is about each and every one of us becoming responsible for our own personal thoughts, feelings and actions – to become aware of them and somehow come to terms with them, either through healing work and/or forgiveness of those parts of yourself that keep you in an energetic loop of inner analytical torture from the ego mind.

Personally, I have been very hard on myself for not stepping forward a lot sooner in being a channel for healing others and for not writing when I would receive so many messages to write.  Just recently I started to judge my grammar on this blog and felt a sense of discouragement, not wanting to continue to write.  But something just got ignited in me to write this posting and not care if it is beautifully written or not.  So many do not write because they were taught in school to be critical of how they write by both teachers and parents.

If one does not express what one is feeling inside, then that is when it starts to turn into physical disease.  So many who commit suicide either suddenly or over a long period of time with alcohol, drugs, foods, sex and other addictive behavior, kill themselves because they were afraid to express what they felt inside – the ultimate inner judge.

If most humans became aware that so many feel what they feel, then the inner judge would lose control and compassion would be birthed instead of self-hatred.

One of the reasons why men tend to die earlier than women is because they do not express what they feel.  Men have been taught that it is a weakness to express what they feel inside, which is not true.  It is the opposite, as it takes a lot of courage to express what you feel.  Most are afraid if they express what they feel, those that they love will no longer accept and love them.  Sometimes that will happen, however, if one loves oneself unconditionally, then one will be surrounded by others who love them the same.

So now is the time to step forward in your own personal lives and express what you truly feel inside through whatever constructive way feels good to you.  Smile at that judge within yourself and tell that part of you, that you are no longer playing along with the false beliefs that you are in some way defective, because you are not!  In truth, you are an individual life-stream of the Creator’s consciousness, love, light and are already whole and perfect just the way that you are.

From the higher realms of consciousness, there are really no mistakes in this life we live, only life experiences that lead us back to fully remembering that we are already one with the Creator.

When you are having a challenge in your lives or see the outer world in chaos, remember to be gentle with yourself and others, as compassion and unconditional love will heal yourself and the world.

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Being molested takes your power away from you, sometimes for most of your life.  I must say, that I wasn’t planning on writing about this as I like to stay in the present moment, but I had a brief dream that woke me up around 3 am in the morning.  In this dream, someone asked me to share my experiences of being molested at some sort of event, saying that it would help others to heal.  Then I woke up and started to write this down in my journal of dreams and as I was going back to bed, I experienced a huge amount of energy (light) pouring on top of my head.  So, I intuitively knew I was being guided to share about being molested as a child and how it can keep you from living the life you want to experience.  As I was writing a little bit, I saw a  spark of light in the air, which confirmed to me my guidance was correct.

When I was a little boy, I was molested by two different men at different times of my childhood.  I have never had any visual recall of these experiences, but have had several moments (about 20yrs. ago) where I felt like I was losing control, turned beat red with shame and went into deep wailing of cries, sounding like a wounded animal; then I looked up at my hands and saw the hands of a small child around the age of 5.

I believe the reason why I never had any visual recall was because when I was around 3 1/2 years old, while I was sleeping, a spirit woman that was of etheric green light came into my room and she placed something on my forehead (I thought it was a leaf).  The following morning I was adamant to the family of what had occurred, but no one believed me.  After my spiritual awakening in my 30’s, I have come to realize that she was closing down my third eye vision, as it was not necessary for me to remember being molested in the future.  And just a special note, that I did have a visit of three etheric beings of green light come to visit me when I was living in Sedona, Arizona :o)

Being molested overtook most of my life, how I felt about myself, my behaviors, my decisions and how I interacted with others.  I grew up being a very insecure, depressed, young person and really wasn’t aware of the root cause of my fear of others, constant anxiety and lack of trust of myself and others, especially men.  In addition to being molested, I had my beloved parents struggling with alcohol and a mother who needed me so much (I felt my sole purpose was to save her).  So, it wasn’t just being molested that did a number on me of not believing in myself.

Low self-worth is birthed from being molested as there is a part of you in the depths of your sub-conscious mind that believes you must of done something wrong to bring this onto yourself (especially if you craved to receive love and attention from your parents), which creates shame and guilt.  I remember when my mom use to ask us children if one of us broke something or did something wrong and I would always feel guilty even if I didn’t do it.

If you did not receive enough quality love and support from your parents, being molested kind of programs you into believing that in order to receive love and attention from others, sex is the way to receive this.  So, that is what I did in my 20’s and into my early 30’s before I had my spiritual awakening.  I had a few relationships that were short term and usually very dramatic of me not feeling loved by them.  And when it seemed like I would never find love with someone, I started to become more promiscuous than ever (very lonely experience).  When you do not love yourself, you will have others mirror this back to you.

Sadly, the younger generations due to technology and lack of love and attention from their parents, are living in a very superficial way and treating sex as a game.   The reason for this is because they are deeply in pain and their inner child just wants to be loved and accepted.

Whenever one goes through any trauma, they will have repressed emotions located in their Sacral Chakra, which is about an inch below the navel.  This chakra is all about creativity, doing things that bring you joy, expressing your emotions and sexual behavior.  If this chakra is blocked by repressed emotions, a person will usually not have a clue of what brings them joy and will usually have addictions (sex, food, alcohol and drugs) that they struggle to overcome.  And the physical problems that can develop are digestive issues, adrenal burn-out (fight or flight), kidney issues (these hold fear) and Candida challenges.

I personally have struggled with all of the above and it is a tiring process, especially the Candida over-growth.  It makes sense about Candida over-growth as the bacteria starts to invade the stomach and then takes over into other areas, which I feel can be connected with lack of respecting one’s boundaries when one was a child.  Of course, there are many other root causes to Candida, some are antibiotics and one’s diet that included lots of sugar from processed foods.

But I feel the biggest destroyer that being molested or any other mental, emotional and physical abuse can do to someone, is taking their personal power away from them.  This is all about the Solar Plexus Chakra that is located under the breast bone and off to the left side around the spleen area.  The Solar Plexus Chakra is all about one’s personal power, ego, self-worth, trust and confidence – it holds the mental thoughts and beliefs we have about ourselves.  If this chakra is temporarily wiped out, then one will let others walk all over them emotionally, mentally and physically, will constantly second guess themselves, will seek guidance from others and will have a hard time with trusting others.

I remember a long time ago, someone at a job I use to work at, said to me “Why do you let them walk all over you?” and I thought why is he saying that to me as I got along with everyone.  But, looking back at it now, I see that my getting overlooked with job promotions that I applied for, was what he was speaking about.

The area of the Solar Plexus has been the hardest part for me to overcome over all of these years, even during the spiritually awakened part.  As you surrender more and more to God and your Higher Self, you need to trust that you will always be safe and taken care of.  As a little boy, I learned that I was never safe and that I cannot trust anyone even myself.  When you get molested or any other traumatic abuse, a part of your inner child usually fragments outside of your body because it did not feel safe living in the body, which causes you to live in your mental, logical mind; cutting yourself off to your own inner guidance.

All of this not feeling safe and lack of trust created a very busy mind with constant thoughts of worry and fear.  So, hearing/feeling/trusting my own inner guidance was like trying to hear someone under water – not an easy task.  This all created a pattern of looking outside of myself to others for advice of what to do and not do in my every day life.  At times, I would still end up going with what I wanted to do, but I tended to listen to others more than what I was feeling inside.

All of this creates a heavy self-judgement of feeling like a failure in life and asking yourself, why can’t I trust myself and my own inner guidance.  All the times of judging my mother over the years for her neediness, I did not realize it was something I had within myself.  So many characteristics that our parents exhibited while growing up, we end up taking the baton of these issues and challenges in the continued race of life.

After many years of looking within myself, receiving energy sessions from others in the beginning of my awakening and then many years of being in meditation with the light pouring into me, I can say without any doubts that I have overcome most of all past challenges that I endured as a child, teenager and young adult person.  It has been an exhausting journey of lots of stress, loneliness, and doubting oneself, but I am aware that it has all been a gift to get me to the surrender state that I live in most of the time, which is true inner freedom.

I (ego) may still be working on clearing self-judgement, but I know within my heart of hearts, that I am not separate from the Creator and that it is this source of light/intelligence/consciousness who lives and experiences life through this physical vessel we inhabit currently.  Sacred marriage of the Higher Creator Self and the Human Self, is the best gift one could ever experience, it is eternal, and many of us are choosing to experience this while we are still physically alive.

Lastly, I want to honor the little boy from within named Brian (my birth name) who came in as a bright light and was full of love.  Thank you little one for being so strong, courageous and resilient for never giving up and persevering through so many challenges that you experienced while growing up.  You never lost your innocence and now can relax back into the arms of God, knowing that you are always one with the Creator and are of pure love and light that is eternal.

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